Note to Abi's diary by Mama
Oh Abigail. How I miss you!
I feel like I have never spent so long without you although it has been barely 48 hours .... yet we have spent entire weeks apart in the past and survived quite happily ... Little One what have you done to my soul???!!!
You have no idea how much I miss your expressions, your personalised words and your love of life ... instead, the space you normally occupy at home is all empty and so deafeningly quiet ..
Abi ... when I called you today I was expecting the usual cheerful little Princess who loves to speak to Mama over the phone ... I was looking forward to hearing your cheerful babble and laughter at our phone play and your bubbly personality ... but baby ... today I heard you transform from a happy little girl playing with her grandparents to a sobbing little girl whose voice choked when she heard her Mama's voice ... you tried to call me but your voice let you down, preventing you from speaking to your Mama in your customary noise-and-sound code ... little girl I'm sorry you didn't understand I wasn't there ... that you suddenly didn't understand that I was just a voice in the ear-piece .... that you wouldn't find me in the corridors, rooms and garden of your doting Mami and Papi ... as I contined to chat with your Mami, I could hear your beautiful, desperate and confused little voice in the background calling out my name ... searching high and low for your special person.
Little Abi ... till today I loved these three little days on my own at home whilst you enjoyed special time with your grandparents ... and beautiful as those days are for you lil girl, I cannot WAIT to hold you in my arms again tomorrow night ... I miss you more than my tear-ducks can bear ... I miss you too Princess!!! Barely 19 hours to go ... let's be brave!
Johanna sju år!
1 year ago